Moving On

OK. Maybe I shouldn't care whether Mia sleeps in her own room or with me right now. Me trying to force her into doing something she's not ready for is giving both of us a hard time. I get upset. She thinks that I don't love her. There are ghosts that might float into her room through holes in the walls. How do you persuade a four-year-old that those scary things in her mind are non-existent? So I'm not going to force the issue. We'll just try again a little bit later.

Facebook games are sucking up my life. I need to just stop and back away. If I can just get my mind to stop wanting to "check what's on the feed"... There are things I'd like to do - the first being to get rid of all the extra clutter around the house. I'm starting to get back into checking all the websites that inspire me to live beautifully and, although I know the images they post are highly stylized, I don't think it's so bad to strive for the same kind of perfection in my own life and home. Gosh...I WANT TO GET BACK TO REALITY!

Calming down...

Getting into bed now with my baby girl right beside me...

Reminder To Myself

In just two days the four of us will be on a little summer vacation. I didn't realize how badly I wanted to spend time with my family until now. We're practically with each other all year, except for whenever Allan goes on his business trips, but there's always a schedule to manage and so many things to do and places to go. I've arrived at this point where I can stop and check my surroundings and all I can do is ask how we got here. Sometimes we see each other without really seeing each other. I just want to make the most of these next few days when us is all there is. I want to remember the smiles on their faces and tell them how much I love them and how happy they make me and how thankful I am that we're together.





These are reminders too...

Last Year's Bedroom

I was browsing through PSE and I found this picture from June 2009. This was probably the last time Pip got to cuddle with another cat. He was just a baby and was used to curling up in his cage at the shelter with his roommates. One of them was his brother and now that I think about it I'm a bit sad that we separated them. I remember his name was Midnight and I hope someone was kind enough to adopt him too. I wonder if Pip ever thinks about him. Sadly, Lola wasn't a very good replacement since she's use to being alone and is already set in her ways.

Another thing that struck me about this picture was how nice my bedroom looked! I miss the cleanliness, the bare floors, the serenity that I feel when I look at it. Oh, to have it once again! To be rid of the endless clutter and the furniture that belongs elsewhere! I miss you so very much, my simple and beautiful room.

Table For Six

Image from Dottie Angel

My Mom and brother are moving in.

Our house is going to be full come the end of this month and I'm looking forward to having more company. I'm currently re-organizing a few of our rooms. My brother will be taking over the loft so I'm moving my office downstairs. Mia will be losing her room for now too, but she's really not missing anything since she still prefers to sleep with me. My goal for today is to move all her belongings into the master bedroom. I'll have to share my space with all of her stuffed animals and My Little Ponies.

With my Mom being available a new possibility has opened up. I can go back to school. I can look for work. It's a little overwhelming since I have neither gone to school or worked outside of my home for nine years. I'm having to ask myself that question, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" I should know the answer to that question by now but I don't.